Sunday, March 21, 2010

Dear Piglet


Dear Piglet,

You were so sweet and funny today you almost broke my heart in half. Daddy drove us all around doing last minute errands and despite the somewhat cloudy day, I kept my sun visor down the entire time just so I could watch you as you watched the world around you from the fluffy throne of your car seat. Your round full cheeks, pink lips that resemble a ripe strawberry, your twinkly eyes, today they all seemed more vivid, more full of life than usual.

I cannot put into words how much I have admired your little personality when I haven't been able to be 100% at my best. You've hung in there with me on days when I could scarcely do more than run to and from the bathroom. You forgave me when I was cranky from too little sleep and snapped at you when you asked one time too many and too impatiently for a refill of your juice cup. During the past 8.5 months, I sometimes expected more of you than your two years, but you never held it against me. Instead, you rewarded me by cozying up to me on the couch and laying your head against my arm. While you are, without question, a demanding little man, you are also, sweet beyond all words and comprehension.

You are my firstborn, my little boy and you are perfect.

Tomorrow our family is going to grow much bigger. Changes abound and some part of me mourns the fact that we will never again have the luxury of being just you and me, Piglet and mommy. We will always have your brothers to think of, to consider, to include. And I know it sounds selfish, but as much as you will crave time just with me, I will crave time just with you. After all, it's been 26 glorious (though not always glamourous) months of that kind of togetherness. Still, I know that there is no better gift I can give you than that of siblings. The gift of other people who are always going to be a part of your life and who will understand the journey we're all on together just as well as you do. Brothers who will share memories of holidays and vacations and "remember that time mom got SO mad because we..."

As much as I mourn the passing of the "just us two" phase of our relationship, I am also bursting with excitement at what the next phase will hold. So far you've proven yourself to be exceedingly loving and gentle towards babies. You love to stroke their heads and pat their backs and plant kisses on their cheeks. I am so proud of how sweet you are with every baby you've met so far! I know that it won't be an easy transition for you, but I also know that you will adore having two babies of your very own (at least some of the time). :)

So, dear sweet Piglet, know that you will always be my firstborn, my love, the person who helped me realize what this ride called life is really all about. I cherish you my darling boy. Thank you for the indelibly paving the way for your brothers. Now let's hope for both our sakes that they're not little shits.

Love,
Mom


14 comments:

Jules said...

A beautiful post.

sienna said...

*good luck today*!!!

Maren said...

That was great MV. And, of course, my favorite part was the last line. Definitely made me LOL!

Christie said...

A lovely letter with a great ending!

mary said...

Hi Margueritte!
Your letter made me cry! I'm thinking about you and praying that everything goes well today!
Love,mary

Anonymous said...

I could not stop laughing at the last sentence!! That was great...such a beautiful post. I hope you are doing well!!

V

Inga said...

You brought tears to my eyes. I know your son - strike that - sons are lucky to have you as their mom.

A New Beginning said...

Beautiful post! ;) And I loved the last line also! ;) Good Luck, I hope everything went beautifully (as I think I am a little late with my comment ;)

strongblonde said...

congrats on the little ones. :)

now the "funness" begins! lol!!!

strongblonde said...

congrats on the little ones. :)

now the "funness" begins! lol!!!

Eileen said...

This blog post should have come with a warning label for pregnant chicks. I just about went through half a box of Kleenex here. So incredibly happy for you. YAY!

Tara said...

Love this, M. So sweet.

Krissi said...

What an adorable letter! Love it!!

Anonymous said...

This letter is heart felt and comical - very well said. Brought tears to my eyes and laughter at the same time. Congratulations to you and your beautiful family!