Ready or not?

Lately I feel like Piglet needs me more than usual.  Needs me closer.  Needs to cuddle more.  Needs to make sure I'm right there behind him while he plays.  He's always been a Velcro-baby, stuck to me right out of the shute, so I'm used to it, but my sixth sense tells me his Velcro is super sticky these days.  Suffice to say the weaning is not going very well.  He just isn't interested in becoming more independent yet even though he's very strong-willed and opinionated, right now he just seems to need and want his momma 24/7.   

This makes me feel so conflicted about our upcoming IVF cycle for another baby because I sense that Piglet is telling me that he's not ready for a sibling, not just yet...that he still needs some more undivided attention and time as an only child.  For his sake, I wish that I could wave a magic wand and wait until next year when he's two and can be reasoned with a *tiny* bit more. But, alas, my cyst-free ovaries won't stay that way forever or maybe not even for 5-6 months and another surgery to remove cysts would most likely result in me losing at least one of my ovaries.  And also, to be perfectly honest and completely selfish, I love the prospect of being pregnant again.  I've never felt so vibrant and happy in all my life.  It was amazing. The end result is pretty fantastic too.  

So we are still moving ahead this spring in hopes of having another miracle baby and giving Piglet a sibling.  Ready or not!!!  For Piglet I believe it's the latter.  Poor thing.  But he'll thank me later when he has someone to push around, right?